One Thing

I’ve been at this one thing conference for the past few days and it has been an amazing experience. I have come to he conclusion that I am not crazy! Everyone thought John the Baptist was crazy as The Lord prepared him for His calling. That story is true throughout the bible. I feel like I finally have permission to relentlessly pursue the Creator of all things. To put Him in every part of my life no matter how insignificant it may seem. All things work together for the good of those who love The Lord.
My hearts desire these past few weeks has been to be where God is. Just the very thought of it brings me to tears. It's been the literal cry of my heart. "God! I just want to be where You are!!"
I’ve come to a place where I finally have a basic understand the all consuming fire of God’s love. I find that as soon as I think I've grasped a concept there's still so much more to know. I think I understand His and then He pours more and more out on me. I think I comprehend His grace and it overwhelms me. His mercy and truth and life are never ending! Nothing else matters! I don’t want anything else! I just want to be with Him. I've spent so many nights on my face crying out to Him. Worshipping Him. Praying for His power and splendor and majesty to be revealed to others.
I’ve also come to this place where I’ve recognized the terrifying power of God! If you've read any part of the Old Testament you know. I'd been so wrapped up in His love and grace that I realized one day that I don't fear Him like I should. He's given me a holy fear and a holy frustration for more of Him. I’ve had but a glimpse of His splendor and majesty and I can’t help but fall on my face in reverence. I don’t cling to Him out of fear but I obey out of love.
I’m in a place of boldness in Christ Jesus, where fear of nothing on this earth or under this earth is going to inhibit me from my calling and from my sole purpose of bringing glory to His name. Nothing is going to hold me back! I've spent too much of my life in a place of fear. Too much time cowering in the shadow of man. I am made in His perfect love and it casts out all fear. Foolish things in the eyes of man are glorious and pleasing to God.
I love my glorious Savior! More than anything! I am so unbelievably in love with Him. He has captivated my heart and transformed my mind. I can’t stop singing! I'm even writing again. I've not written in years! He's restoring the gifts and talents that I'd forfeited long ago.  I have given Him everything and it has completely changed my life. I can’t even explain this longing for Him. It’s like my very soul is yearning and reaching for Him. Everything that I am cries out for Him. I’ve only had a taste of His glory and as satisfying as it is, it continually creates a deepening hunger for the face of God. I have been consumed and ravished by the Lover of my soul and nothing will ever be the same!